This is a good place to start, in case you are new here.

Not because you’re behind.

Not because you need fixing.

But because at midlife, something silent changes.

The previous modes of pushing, proving and performing cease to be effective.

And what you have left is not clearness yet… merely a conscientious inquiry:

This must have an alternative way of living.

This space is here for that time.

What You’ll Find Here

My audience is women in midlife years, particularly those who have lived with much responsibility and can no longer pretend that they are all right.

There’s something more that is demanding to be heard.

This isn’t self-help.

It isn’t hustle.

And not even spiritual performance.

It is insightful, grounded writing that writes about:

               Of decades of roles the identity.

               Vitality, exhaustion and wisdom of the nervous system.

               Releasing without falling apart.

               Spirituality is rooted in experience and not in certainty.

You need not go along with all this. You need just to see yourself reflected in it.

How This Site Is Organized

The movement through this work may be done in two ways:

Novena’s Pulse

This is my essay collection of contemplative writing, essays developed through lived experience, observation, and investigation.

These are works that were composed during times of transition.

Others were developed gradually, seasonally.

You may read them in series, or peep in at any point where you find something to your liking, or you may re-read them as a set-piece to go with the pillar work.

Core Pillars

These are more profound, coherent sets of work, long-term structures that I use as a source of theme to which I keep returning.

If you want to have a sense of being grounded or get into the depths– then this is the place to start.

Core Pillars

Freedom Within Conditions

Your past makes you what you are–but not what you are.

It is concerning the development of self as life opens up. Midlife provides the opportunity of remaking who we are- without having to forget where we have been.

It’s about:

               Challenging traditional attitudes.

               Creating the differences between conditioning and truth.

               Then shedding off the roles that had been holding you safe.

               Steal the right to become what you are becoming.

→ Explore Freedom Within Conditions

If You’re Wondering Where to Begin

In case You are Wondering Where to Begin.

If you’re feeling:

               Tired of “starting over”

               Curious but cautious

               Disoriented by change

               Silently ready for something truer.

You do not have to read it all.

Begin with one piece.

Follow what resonates.

Let the rest wait.

It’s meant to be lived with.

A Note on Pace

I don’t publish to keep up.

I put into print to speak my truth with intention. 

You’re welcome to linger here.

There is no hurry.

Take your time and enjoy.